Most of us have  facebook or myspace or something like it. On any of these sites that allow us to reveal ourselves and stay connected with friends you can find a section called “About Me.” There is no doubt in my mind that in that little section we portray the self that we want people to know. The About Me section is the make-up of these sights. The words we use to cover what might be hidden deep down. This isn’t to say that the things we say on there aren’t true, just like when we wear make-up; it is still us…just not the completely 100% real us. There is a cover.

I am not suggesting that I am in any different. The things I say in my About Me sections are all of the happy dandy stuff that make me who I am. It does not always say everything I want to say about myself, really. There are people that say “I don’t care what you think!” and all of that kind of stuff, which is really just a cry saying “I care what you think” if you ask me. But anyways, I am not going to go on and on about other people, I want to say something about myself. So, along with this, I have posted a picture of me in my element, without make-up, just there for the world to see. Here is my About Me section, for this blog post anyways:

My name is Amanda Flick. I was born on September 27, 1990 in the small town of Putnam. I am currently 18 years old, and still living there. I have red hair and hazel eyes, and skin that doesn’t really tan. If we are talking about looks, I guess I could be happier with myself. I have a low self-esteem most times, mostly because I am unhappy with my weight. I tend to eat when I am stressed or sad, so that doesn’t help. (yeah, I don’t deal with stress or any hectic situation very well….) I hate the feeling of being fat, of feeling like everything is just bulging out. But I love to be active and I currently attend curves, so with that and the summer I am hoping to improve my lifestyle so that it is a healthy one. I am extremely passionate about everything. Love, family, and friendships.  I tend to invest my whole heart in all of these relationships, so I am probably considered “clingy” as a lover, friend, or even family member. But it isn’t because I am obsessive, it is because I really do care THAT MUCH. So when something goes wrong in a relationship, I don’t rest easy until it is settled, one way or the other. I have two relationships that are extremely important to me. The most important one is the one that I have with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I love Him, and for some reason He loves me too. I cannot begin to describe how much my life has improved with Him, but I know it has and I feel so blessed every day. I also have my boyfriend, true love, and soul mate, Jaryd Timothy Mathewson. We started dating on June 2, 2007. It has been two years now, and although we have had our ups and downs I know that we can face anything together. He has seen me in my darkest times, and he never ran away. And that is why I love him. I have an awesome family, which I love to death, too. They all have their quirks, but I love them. My parents fight a lot, but that is because they are disabled and our together 24:7. I would rather they didn’t smoke, but hey, I deal with it. I have a brother who can be really annoying, but really sweet, too. A sister who I sometimes question her thought process, but I couldn’t be happier to be related to her.

I have friends, too. I am happy to have any of the friends that I have now, because I have made some mistakes and so have they. But in the end, I am always glad to have them around. I am often busy, and wish I had more time to offer them, but after living a whole year with not a friend (in town) to my name, it is hard to manage my time as well as I could. But I do always think about them and miss them, I only wish they would understand that. And to those friends that I don’t talk to anymore, I hope they know I care. I often mistake my sadness for hate, and spread it around that I can’t stand them anymore. But the truth is that when I say that, it could not be more of a lie. It is more that I miss them, and that my brain cannot understand what happened. So, in confusion, it is angry. I am angry. And my mind is always searching for the truth in my life, and always returning to the past. I am someone who can throw that past away. I accept it, but still I am always wondering about what that means for me now. I don’t forget people that walk into my life, even if they walk out.

I am the kind of person who is always trying to do the right thing. So if I hurt people, I often don’t know why because I was never intending to hurt anyone. It just happens somewhere along my journey, even if I did not mean it to. My intentions with everything I do are usually good, so if I hurt someone I almost always seek to correct it. Maybe not right away, but eventually. I cannot hold grudges, and I trust everyone way too much. I have given second, third, fourth….ect….chances to people. Because I forgive, I love, and I move on. It is a naive way to be, I guess, considering the people in this world, but I believe it is also a good way to live. It is the way Jesus lived, and the way that God loves us. I believe all people deserve that love, and that people can change. They can. This attitude gets me hurt more than necessary, I think, but it is something I am proud of myself for. That I sincerely like about myself, no matter how hurt I may get by being that way.

That is me. Beside that are the fluff things like the fact that I love to write, and read, and dance, and listen to music. I am a happy person, who is a child at heart. I like to watch disney, and nickelodean still. I think that kids movies are cute, and sometimes I believe that I am a disney princess. I am kind of a innocent person, and don’t really do many bad things. I work at stop and shop, and the Writing Center at RIC. I want to be an English Teacher, and a novelist. I attend Church three times a week during my good weeks, and I love it. I am part of a sorority, wish I could still play soccer and be in band. Maybe I will this year, I don’t know. But that is me, good and bad. I am pretty simple, I think. But that is that.

I am not sure if even the people I know understand all of the levels I am on. How my mind constantly contemplates my life and everything and everyone in it. It is just the way I am, who I am.

But that is my entry for today, and I am stickin’ to that. Until my next entry, Happy Blogging!

I do leave you with this challenge, though…If you had an About Me section that told EVERYTHING that you are…what would it say? If you decide to write about this, please send me a link, or even feel free to leave it as a comment on my page. I would love to see what others have to say!